Without You

Hi there. What's going on with you? This has been one loooong October though, i've got to be honest(but God has steady been making it every bit as awesome as it has been long for me sha. ^_^).

I hope you've all been doing great. I just thought i'd share this one poem. It's a pretty old piece i was inspired to write early this year....

See sometimes yeah, i tend to complain. A lot.

I know, it might look like not-so-big-a-deal but if it's a really inconvenient 'little-deal' situation, and i've been having numerous instances of such 'situations' in close proximity, then yeah, I'll whine. I go running to God with a variety of 'why's' just jumping off my tongue and the funny thing is, i ought to KNOW better. Right?

Yet half the time i'm simply AMAZED at how it's almost like the easiest thing on earth to pin point each and every annoying disruption to my anticipated 'smooth' day and relay them to every ear that cares to listen (and even the ones that do not).

It's rather disgusting.

Even I don't feel so proud when i'm done more than half the time. But you know what's really sad? The way we (because i'm pretty sure i'm not a one-man band in this act)so easily let one or two petty situations (or even an avalanche of depressing circumstances) COMPLETELY take our focuses off all of the many wonderful things there are to 'wipe that frown off' over. SO FRIGGIN' MANY! o_0

Sometimes i catch myself (more like the Holy Spirit quacks me though) and ponder on just how big a mess every one of us would be in if God didn't bother to intervene in our lives on a per-second basis. Just imagine. Try.

I mean, sure i'm allowed to get irritated and upset about some things, i'm pretty sure i'm even allowed to share what's hurting me with someone, run to my heavenly dad and cry out to Him; all that is cool! Where the problem lies is in the dwelling on the source of anger/annoyance/frustration/irritation/vexation...(you get the message). It never, EVER helps telling folks over and over and over what who did and how it's really got you in a rage and blah blah blah; then we come with the pretty much empty threats or the 'if-onlies' we know won't be happening anytime soon, etc.

Sound familiar anyone? Well I should know. I was guilty of all this only yesterday. And no it is NOT a braggin' point. -_-

That's kind of why it's so fresh in my memory and i thought of the poem because I can tell you one thing with all certainty, when I managed to get my big mouth shut and just asked God to calm me and put all that was bugging me totally in his care, GBAM! That was it (plus one or two really deep breaths and a heavy meal. #wink). But really though, i think the biggest problem lies in the way we over emphasize the problem and simply keep yakking about it like that ever got anything fixed. I mean really!

Fact remains, bad things may happen to us, around us and all, but there are people living who've gone through much worse. People who are still living despite the greater nightmares they've had to face in their lifetime. None of that comes to mind when we're feeling sorry for ourselves---but it should. So that we learn to stay grateful. And keep things in their proper perspective.

If there were no God, if Jesus NEVER came, if there wasn't salvation and redemption and all the wonderful mercies we enjoy now as a result of God's unlimited grace and eternal sacrifice...all the stuff that happens and seems really tragic, would be nothing more than a walk in the park compared to what it could be...

Let's just remember that.
Here's the poem:

Without You

 It’s the bruised heart, the fear filled eyes

The trembling fingers and shattered self-pride.

It’s the loneliness and desolation, the hunger that’s feeding a whole nation.

The cries of the aged one, the silence of the still born.

It’s the pain and the bitterness; it’s the scars that are hidden.

The tolerance of hate and the incessant fighting.

It’s the wrong and the cruel, the folly obedient mule.

It’s the welcome of bedlam and the art of being inhuman.

 

It’s the rape of the truth and discernment’s absence.

The distortion of what’s honest, the diversion of the relevant.

It’s the sound of death and they who live in it.

The weighty emptiness, the feeling of numbness.

It’s the worst thing imaginable, what we have brought upon us

Because we mete out irreverence to you in whom love we can trust.

It’s what our temporary dwelling and its inhabitants go through,

But this is the Good News…there will Always be you.

There'll always be pain.
There'll always be suffering.
And there'll always be Jesus. 

Stay blessed all!

xxx, kwiksie.

New found LURVVV!!! :)

Greetings! I'd like to quickly share something with you all. It's this hobby of mine; photography. ^_^

Now, i don't want to call it a 'new' hobby because that would be a tad dishonest, considering i've always loved being behind and infront of a camera. (Hehe) However, of recent i seem to have just fallen in love with the sky though. Really! I'm sure it can't be only me who notices how gorgeous the sky can be sometimes- the clouds,their ever changing patterns, the sunlight, the way it's rays shoot through them trees, leaves, etc. The thousands of shades and hues at just one sunset--c'mon, you know what i mean.

Now it's not as if i'm just noticing them, but the difference is i didn't always have a way of storing those really beautiful moments and sceneries (except in my minds' eye); but now.

I SURE DO! :D

I enjoy taking people, plants, insects, wareva! But so far, nothing leaves me breathless as the way God paints masterpieces on the vast canvas of the sky millisecond after millisecond. It's just awe-inspiring! And so i've decided to share some shots i really love with you all.(I'll probably make this a habit now or soemthing).

Please note, the picture quality of an ipod...isn't the most fantastic. But it gets the job done and that's good enough for me though! ^_^ Enjoy!!! :)

19th August's Sunset 

In front of the Hall of Mary. ;)

A moth i saw in CDS...it had the most artistic wings though!

                                                             THIS IS MY FAVORITE SKY PAINTING! (so far).

When fruits are ripe...but still inedible. lol

   Random moth i saw on Friday.

Pretty gathering. 

Well say hello to a new day! ^_^

I know it might not be the most exciting past-time...but they make me smile so...#shrug. :)

Thanks for viewing!

xxx, kwiksie~

Happy New Month!!!

Hi people! Yes, yes, it's great to write to you as well!! ^_^ How was September?
Mine was pretty busy, i must confess (i've had to squeeze in time to post this) but  i can hardly bear the thought of not communicating with all you amazing individuals out there for over ONE WHOLE MONTH!!! Naw men, it's too hard. ;)
I do apologize for not getting anything across to you for the whole of last month though...i sincerely will try to make sure that doesn't happen again. School's just been tremendously hectic! There's been at least a million and seven things happening at a time and at some point they all threatened to overwhelm me-but i've come out okay (Thank God!).

I don't have too much to say though. Happy New Month!!! for starters. :D It's great to be here innit? Yes, yes, it might not seem so for some of us but still, no matter what's happened in September, before September and etcetera-- hey! you're alive! You're sane, you can still think and operate a laptop or ipod or iphone or blackberry, or whatever. Soooo, liven up a little! (Trust me, that's partially a note-to-self.)

One thing i know i'm going to be working on this month and onward is the way i use my tongue (in regards to speaking and all) because the topic never gets old and it's too important to be ignored.
I need to be constantly on guard because many times, even with the best of intentions, correcting and helping and scolding and advising can suddenly slide down the interpretation slope and become NagGing.

Webster defines nagging as scolding or finding fault with REPEATEDLY, to cause annoyance by scolding or repetition.

Interestingly, a nag is also an inferior or aged horse. HA!

The best remedy (as i was able to derive from my devotional: "Girlfriends in God") to being a nagging person is to becoming a praying person. (Look up: 1 Peter 5:7 and Psalms 55:22). It something i consider quite relevant though because, believe it or not, wrong communication or misinterpreted/misrepresented behavior can ruin the most valuable relationships and opportunities in our lives! Especially since too many people seem to just LOOOOVE to take offence at the slightest thing! Wearing them down with the same broken record drone of how faulty they are and how you know just how to fix them cus they've missed it big time (and you never have??)is not going to work. Even i get a bit 'correction' deaf when i think i'm only hearing too much judgementalism and self-righteousness being espoused from the lips of someone claiming to care about me, imagine when it keeps coming over and over and over again---from someone you might not even be so close to!

Yup. i don't think anyone would really dig that.
Let's try and work on it (for those of us who are guilty of 'nag syndrome') and for those of us who aren't----i hope you stay that way by God's grace. :)

I'll be with you all soon enough. Stay blessed.
xxx, Kwiksie~