#TurnUp!

Loud.
The boom from the speakers
The squeaks from their sneakers
His bold attempt to seduce her
The excitement birthed by liquor.

Low.
Any and every sense of morality
The ability to distinguish hallucinations from reality
Their self restraining abilities
...on the dance floor go their indulged bodies.

Long.
Each person's drag on the shisha
The hours spent defiling one another
-is the distance between them and order
...naps and aspirins are all they assume they'll need after.

Late.
Some will be if they grab the steering
When they'll see that all they worshipped were worth nothing
...into the night they'll keep 'grooving '
It will be to repent if death does the sobering.

#whatareyouusingyourlifefor?

xxx, Kwiksie~

Thank You For The Now

The betrayal, the pain, the regrets, and the tears.

They were all I ever knew, and they knew me best.

I never got to understand my own actions,

I gave my all too soon and in return received piercing fractions.

Thus each blow to my heart signaled my eyes to express sorrow...

And I taught myself to dread all my tomorrows.

But you've managed to bring me from that point,

Though I can't fully explain how.

So in spite of my dim yesterdays,

At least I can thank you for the now.

None of them ever cared and they didn't pretend they wanted to.

We were alone and wounded and had never even heard of You.

My fury was worthless, fantasies of revenge the only lifeline.

I couldn't protect anyone and growing up took way too much time.

It went on almost forever, and my hatred burned deeper for our abuser and his supporter.

Where were you then and why are you just coming around?

Couldn’t you hear as each day in hurt and pain we screamed out loud!?

I've been told you can fix everything

But in my case I can't see how.

If you wouldn't save me then...

How can I trust you to save me now?

You think you've seen filthy? Well let me introduce you to me.

I'd fill in more details but this life excluding the eternal keeps me too busy.

I hear you're searching for who to save...move along

I'm not money for the bank, and I actually revel in my wrong.

I am successful, influential, and in my youth's prime;

So the only light I want in my life is the one prefixed with lime.

I don't think you know me, but I could care less if you did.

My life is mine to auction, and I’m ignoring your bid.

When people wonder how I manage to be so loved

I look in a mirror, point and say: "That's How!"

So now that you know I’m the reason behind my rising above,

Do you yet insist that for absolutely nothing I thank you now?

I had always hoped that in me you’d trust.

Letting go of your desperation and romance lust.

You chose to learn the hard way by getting bruised

That if you’d waited upon me you’d not have been so used.

But it pleases my heart that eventually you realized

That no one can truly value you until he sees with my eyes.

What you were forced to suffer was never my will

I loved you prior and I love you still.

In truth, you’d known of me but paid little attention

And thus my message of love - grace - forgiveness yet again knew rejection.

It broke my heart repeatedly, your pain.

But even moreso that it was the reason you wouldn’t let me in.

I longed to wipe those tears; heal that broken body and heart.

Evil has had its fun…won’t you let righteousness play His part?

I sense deceit has been well peddled to you

Else why should you be delighted at being played for a fool?

The issue is you’ve got it all twisted

And I’m hoping you’ll correct that before your time here is ended.

You’re convinced you don’t need me?

Your very heart beat proves you wrong.

If you believe it’s the world that loves you;

Then why am I the only one who hung?

You might have become too blinded to see

Just how much you need saving.

But if you give me the opportunity

You’ll have the best reason to give thanks to me.

It may not always seem reasonable

Especially when life’s weight tries to make you bow.

But rather than regret the past and fear the future

You can let me love you now.

Happy New Year beautiful people. :)

xxx, Kwiksie.~

Celebration of Christs' Birth...not 'X'.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!!!!!!!! :)

Congratulations to each and every person who has successfully witnessed and joined in the celebration of the selfless saviour's birth!! You, my friend, are one loved and highly favore person. Just so you know. :)

I'm excited to be here, thankful more like. God's been exceedingly faithful and merciful and i'll all but shout it from the rooftop(s)! :D
It's been a wonderful year. Every incident, experience or challenge, encounter or attack, memory and adventure, smile or scowl, laugh or tear, EVERYTHING! has in some way contributed to the uniqueness of 2013 and llike it or not, they have all added to the changes in you. They've had a mighty hand in making sure the person you were 361 days ago, isn't the person you are now.Innit grand? I think it is too.

Christmas is wonderful. I appreciate the amazing love expressed to us by God almighty in His letting His beloved son come to earth to undergo agonizing pain and suffering just so we get to dodge His mega wrath. I appreciate the truth and reality of this each day i take in oxygen. It's truly beautiful that we get to have Christmas-a day that ought to serve as the global reminder- so the entire world can take out one day in the year to collectively revel in such irrational love.

Unfortunately, way too many are ignorant to or have just gradually forgotten Christmas day's essence. Well let's make it simple;
No Jesus, No Christmas.

Jesus Christ is the center of attraction. He is all that is worth celebrating. He is worth all the joy and excitement and thanksgiving. HE is the REASON for the SEASON.
Not 'X', not 'Santa Claus', not Presents, not stockings, not trees, cookies, milk and chicken, not Mistletoe and Romance, not some warped definition(s) of love, not great holidays, great food and gift hampers.
It's Jesus, Jesus, JESUS! It's not going to change. Christmas celebrates HIM! Enough with the sad hype of Santa Claus and food and parties, presents, clothes, vacations and what have you. If all the festive fun we have is not centered on Christ and not expressed for reason of our love, absolute surrender and gratitude to Him...it might as well be any other day.

Oh and one more thing; there is no such thing as Xmas. Nobody celebrates the birth of X, X never died for nor saved anyone. X is a plain old letter that has nothing to do with anything as concerns CHRIST.
Let's QUIT IT, alright? I am not an 'X'tian celebrating 'X'mas.
I'm a Christian, honored and privileged to know Christ and to have had a whooping great CHRISTmas!

Merry Christmas all. :)
xxx, kwiksie.