You Seem To Forget...

I was there from the start, from the very beginning.

From the immeasurable joy that sought no ending;

From the tears to the smiles to the quiet times too,

I was right there…and so were you.

I was there during the times you felt utterly lonely,

When you’d try to walk away, I’d plead with you to hold me.

When you treated me like filth, in place, my love, I kept,

I stayed put even when you left.

I’ve been there every time that I’ve been needed,

My heart heavily bled when yours haplessly wandered.

You’ve done the bad, the worst and the utterly mean,

But I’ve forgiven, before the ground even views your knee.

You may slip sometimes, but I’ll break your fall.

I’ll eternally want you; don’t let mistakes make you stall.

Mine don’t exist, because I am perfect.

You ought to follow my lead…but you seem to forget.

:)

Sometimes we tend to drift away and forget all this, either due to circumstances or one excuse or the other...i know, i've fallen victim even of recent  >_< . Yet we must keep in remembrance in EVERY situation and circumstance, the God who's always and will always be there for us.
Stay blessed folks.

xxx,kwiksie.

UpDaTes!

Hiiiiiii! Wonderful, much loved readers, how've you been?!?!
Happy new month to you all and to every memeber of the Kingdom family, i hope you all had an amazing time celebrating His resurrection!!! I most certainly did! :D

Okay, what's new...uhhhh, lemme see...there's so much really. On the academic front, my results are out and God really has been faithful. It actually is the best result i have ever had since i got into the 'education market' (lol) and that is precisely what i asked God for so i just thought to share my testimony with you all.
Then there's my walk with Him which is still growing and has been a wonderful adventure cus i've just been basking in His love and witnessing various shades and manifestations of His mega, swagged out, awesomeness! As in, you've got no idea!(well,then again, i'd like to think you actually do....;) ) You know it just really dawns on me sometimes, just how much he actually cares bout all that concerns me (us) and it's honestly, super amazing...NOTHING beats it, ever!


Well, in general life's 'better'. Better than it was yesterday, and so will all my proceeding days exceed the present day in evidences of His faithfulness and mercies in my life...as they will, i pray, in yours. :) Stay tops people.

xxx,kwiksie.

Friends & Family***

Hello wonderful people!!!  It's been awhile, i have been a tad busy...or rather my mind has and so i had to get it together so i don't post something incomprehensible.

Right. A few weeks ago, my father in the faith (and in every other sense of the word 'Father' to be sincere) gloriously left this temporary address we call earth to permanently be with Jesus. Now i'll be real with you, that is NOT what came to my mind when i was first informed of his exit; in fact, for those first few hours there really wasn't a mind for anything to come to. But the facts did not change my definition of what is true.
And as many of you already know, there's a huge difference between the two. :)
Fact: I can't see him, hear him, smell or touch him; so i musta lost him...forever.
Truth: He's left here for where 'home' really is to live for eternity...and maybe extra.
I guess i'll just have to keep reminding myself of that eh?

In regard to other happenings, i recently (thursday's pretty recent innit?) went to have some refreshing girl-time with a good friend (who happens to be my sister) and loved every minute of it! We talked (you know how therapeutic that is) and shopped (equally health promoting for girls #wink) and we just generally had a blast!! ^_^

SHOUT OUT TO ALL THE GREAT FRIENDS WE'VE GOT WHO HAPPEN TO BE RELATED TO US!

So this is me telling everyone reading who's got a sister: Go hang out and enjoy another one of the amazing gifts God has chosen to bless us with!
N/B: If you don't have the time now, you'll still lack it later.
#philosophicalmoment ;) lolz.

God bless you all.
xxx kwiksie~

May I Simply Be Honest?

hi guys. uhm, there's someone i'd like to introduce you to; for as many who didn't already know him...

He was a father always to be had.
He was the laughter that shamed things sad;
and that i dearly loved him is news un-new,
but also is the truth that this is ripping me in two.
My emotions are a mess and it's as though i'm stuck
because with all i feel it's as though my expressions have been locked up.

I love you so very much and this pain could kill!
But this isn't about death, because you live still.
I've tried to stay blank, acquaintancing with any distraction
But that offers no help- not even a measly fraction.

See i wrote you a song Papa, one you will never hear.
I wrote it on your birthday...it was just last year.
Yet now it doesn't seem that way anymore,
it's like all the glorious times walked out the door.
A door i never noticed was in the room;
No fault of mine because i was so focused on you.
On the way you love and somehow always come through,
Oh how I wanted so bad to be just like you.

Now all of a sudden, these locked up feelings have been let loose. 
Writing becomes difficult for fear of soaking my words through
since they're already drenched in this helplessness i feel;
because it isn't about what i want when there's His sovereign will.

I'm going to miss you so much and you aren't even aware.
Well, you can't be since you are no longer even here.
You had your dreams and along the way they too became mine;
Now i am wishing they all actualized at a sooner time.

You know what hurts even more is that before you left i was gone.
I never thought that casual hug would be the last one.
Oh, if i did it would have been ten times longer!
I'd be storing up to keep me warm for this numbing future.

When i was a little girl, i'd watch you sometimes and pray;
"Lord, until i get married let Papa Eagle stay."
I so longed to see that proud look in your eyes
As you blessed us, the new groom and bride.
Why that prayer wasn't answered, i'll never truly know
But whether you're here or not, my love still flows.
Not just for you, but also for your maker;
He has rights to want you because He IS God, the hugest giver,
and you are a treasured gift we had for awhile.
I know you are happiest now, and to connect to that is what i try.

Your legacy, in my heart, is and always will be a permanent fixture
burnt into my heart, like a tattooed picture.
The same way many years ago you held me in your arms
Giving thanks to God for the blessing i should be and now am
in like manner do i lift my heart to the heavens;
A heart full of gratitude for the privilege to have known God's servant.

It's an honor to have known you, sweet C.E.O
If you never knew how much you're loved, I hope God lets you know.
I feel like going on forever but i must indeed stop
So i no longer am burnt by these fiery drops.
If i were asked about paradoxical emotions, this would be one
because though you might have just arrived, the fact is you're gone.
Yet deep down i am happy, and here's the reason;
with no access to this air, you're still ever living.


I love you Pastor Cee.

xxx ~kwiksie

Yet i love you more...

hi people! how has the month been so far? Well it's been awesome for me. There were one or two not-so-upbeat days in appearance but all round i've been great and of recent i've been coming across some of the most wonderful people ever! As in, i have alot in common with 'em (apart from what i'm studying)plus the way we've gotten so comfortable with ourselves is just amazing! :D
Anyway, i've been doing a lot of writing in the past couple weeks. Poetry kinda things and i plan to be putting a couple on here, partly because i was advised to and also in case there are some poetry inclined folks amongst ya'll reading. :)

Oh, and another thing; please feel free to leave comments you guys. it'll actually be nice to know what your opinions are about stuff i post or whatever...plus it'll make my readers more real to me minus the 'Views' stat, okay? Right. :)

Yet I Love You More

There’s no heading to put to this,

No nifty phrase to catch the eye.

I’m not trying to be eloquent or intellectual,

Mixing up metaphors and figures of speech

Like ingredients blended to bake a pie.

No. That’s not why I’m here nor is it what I plan to do.

What I’m here to say is real simple; I’m in love with you.

You needn’t ask me why but even if you do, my answer will be basic:

I’m in love with you because you taught me to.

Yet flaw filled, you only saw my beauty.

You saw things no looking glass has ever shown me.

I was callous and raw yet you ignored it all,

Seeing value in a product too damaged to recycle…

Or so I thought; and kept thinking at my destiny’s cost

Simply because in all those lies I chose to get lost.

I’m just trying to be honest, nothing more;

Translating my heartbeat into a genre of literature.

My blood counts for nothing, you’re the life running through my veins.

The tissues in my head where my thoughts are contained.

Things on which I bequeathed value don’t matter anymore,

Now, because I love you, I’ve renounced my nature.

My transformation astonishes many, but you leave me in awe.

I’m so eager to do your bidding, I lack reasons to stall!

You’ve quickened in me a passion I never want to see reduce,

With you the person I am never existed, I’m no longer ‘fairly used’.

I love being with you so I’m never leaving.

I love hearing your voice so please help me listen.

I love seeing you at work because that’s the best picture there is,

And I fight getting distracted so there’s nothing I miss.

My devotion can’t be in parts because you haven’t given me some;

You’ve given me the sum of all you are and likewise have I done.

I’m sorry that between us I let a gap form and widen,

I’m sorry that instead of running to you I was constantly hiding.

I let myself get frozen when your arms are ever warm,

You put me back together but I still got myself torn.

I’ve disappointed a lot but all that’s about to change,

My error connected self is now permanently disengaged.

I get to cuddle in your forgiveness when all I deserve is rage.

If I had to write my slips down there’d never be a last page.

The weight of my injustice to you would crash the typical gauge,

But still you don’t quit me because you’re beyond average.

So I’ve penned a little down and now attempt to find a full stop…

But I honestly love you more than is depicted by these words I have put up.

Aiight, that's about it. Stay blessed ya'll.

xxx Kwiksie.

Love Huh?

Hi guys! How're you all doing? Well, personally i've been taking exams one after the other, and thanks to God i'm actually enjoying them! ie I'm not stressed out or worried or any of that stuff; it's awesome really.

Aight now truth be told, i really didn't have any plans to make a post about valentine's day...at all. Partly because i think it receives WAYYYY too much hype already. But oh well, plans change i guess.

Now please don't misunderstand, the last thing i intend to do is hate or bust anyone's bubble but let's be honest 'Celebration of Love'? REALLY?! I mean, do we sincerely believe that February 14th celebrates love? I mean sure there are the sweet wall papers with all them romantic lines and stuff, and there's the traditional rose-chocolate-wine-teddy bear ensemble. For those who like to take to another level altogether, there could be that new movie you know she'd just love, dinner at some exotic place with a killer menu...and very possibly a booked room at one of those classy hotels. Ring a bell? Riiiiight. Now of course this does not apply to EVERYONE, just the huge majority and many who fall under this category are convinced that those things i just listed above (of course they most likely vary in more ways than one depending on the couple but you get the picture ;) )are things people will most naturally do if they are in love. Correct?

Wrong.

Yeah, you read right but hey! chill, don't close the page just yet i'm getting somewhere. ;) What i'm driving at is that of the millions over the face of the globe who get crazed over this 'traditional' celebration, only a measly percentage truly have a clue what love is and who love is embodied in. But does he get recognized on Feb 14th even though He IS love? I wish.

If only girls getting greedier for materialistic stuff, and guys putting themselves under unnecessary pressure to impress someone; either the girl, her friends, his friends or whoever; if only that meant love...

If only letting go of my principles and subjecting my body to degradation outside marriage due to my need for acceptance or possibly a self esteem issue; if only that meant love...

If only letting lust drive me and trying to get what i know i don't value or deserve from a girl who adores me, just cus i probably can; if only that was love...

Nah. I don't think so. You see, the definition of love never changed...we just allowed the world's lies change our interpretation and understanding. That's what's pathetic. You want the truth? Get a bible and check John 3:16, and when you're done with that move to 1 Corinthians 13...THAT'S love. If you're not learning from that manual, or by THAT example, you've got a long way to go pal.

So please let's clear the misconception. Contrary to what we 'say' is being celebrated on Valentines day, all i 'see' being celebrated most is selfishness, greed and sex. That's a truth many will contest but still...
We degrade love and it's whole essence when we place it as modern day February 14th's theme. Love is NOT always getting stuff (material stuff or otherwise), Love also isn't about how much you can flaunt or show off or buy either. Those who're believers in the gospel of Jesus Christ have got the perfect role model to teach us how this love thing is done and it would be pretty cool if more people made Him their tutor as well.

People, love is a verb and the action here must be in EVERY aspect, EVERY season and for EVERY person..irrespective of who they are. 
Now when there's that special person, ya'll can plan your own special day, just for two! There's nothing wrong with that is there? Is it extremely expedient to join the rest of the world and make your love a commercial activity? Huh? More about 'goods and services' than the actual person?
Fellas, there's no beating J.C's example, okay? Once he takes first place in your heart and you learn to love like Him everything becomes easier. Ladies, i don't know about you but i'd be very content having a dude insanely in love with Christ; cus then i'm certain he can't help but love & value me right...as a princess ought to be cherished. ^_^

So please, let the love life run in our veins. For all those who might be feeling alone or left out due to all the hype and pressure from various people about you not 'having anyone' or you being 'sad and alone', firstly don't let them get to you (some of them just want free cake & candy) and then as someone told me recently, many just want to stick their noses in your business and try to pressure you till they're running your life; DON'T LET IT HAPPEN! Everything is beautiful and perfect in it's right time (a.k.a God's time). So just do as the following pictures say, and let your 'loving' be everyday. ;)
I Love you people! And i mean that too. :D 
xxx Kwiksie.

Great start to a Better year!

Wonderful people! A happy February to you all and even better months ahead.

Well, i must admit that i'm expecting really huge things from the year 2013...and my expectations won't be cut short. January was wonderful and i'm grateful to God for the privilege of seeing February with you all, my amazing readers. I'm getting better in my walk with Christ and I promise you it's the absolute best thing that can happen to anyone. Well, if January has been this refreshing, Lord knows what this month and it's successors have in store...especially since everything is set to 'Better' mode by default. I can hardly wait! :)

Here are a few pictures from January...and maybe sometime before. ;)

feeling VERY vintage. ;)

me and my bestie

BRAIDZ!!! ^_^

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Oh well, that pretty much sums it up for now. I look forward to the proceeding days in Febuary...as well as seeing you all in my next post. Have a fabulous week folks.

xxx, Kwiksie~

What's Not To Give?!

Wonderful people! You've been missed. Happy 2013 to you all (i'm sorry it's reaching you this late though.)
This has been one of my best year-beginnings ever and i've got God to thank for that. There's just too much to be happy about and it just keeps getting better and better and better...:D

Now of recent, i've observed how our minds are too often tuned to 'self' by default. On meeting up with some friends this new year, the most frequent lines in our first few conversations testify to this truth. "Look what I got for Christmas." ; "What did you  bring for us?" ; "Have you gotten the latest iPad mini?" ; "What's your boyfriend going to give you on your birthday?". It doesn't end.

Now don't get me wrong, there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with getting. Nothing at all, I love getting myself! But what's worrying AND saddening, is when the 'appreciating' reduces and the giving on our own part is almost non-existent.

Wherever you are sitting right this minute i'm certain you can count off on all your 10 fingers some things you've done nothing whatsoever to get or receive that you've been given anyway; either from God or man. Wanna bet? There's your life for starters, the oxygen you're inhaling, your ability to read this sentence AND understand it too, the internet was created without you having to slave at some desk wasn't it? I don't need to list anything out to be honest, you can figure them all out yourself...and we both know there are tons more don't we? Exactly!

In the same vein, I think it would be nice if we inculcated the giving habit into our subconscious and simultaneously got rid of the self-ish and wasteful ones. The very thing I might junk disdainfully cus maybe I've got access to something better is probably the very thing someone else yearns for at that precise point in time. And another thing, sacrifice isn't such a bad thing to make so i'm about to increase it's frequency in my life. Sacrifice a little 'Me' time for someone who needs encouragement, sacrifice a little sleep and pray for those sick, in need, in disaster struck regions, wherever.

But most importantly, we must keep in mind that there's someone to be thanked. No matter how 'bad' things might seem to get, if He'd let what we deserve happen to us, we won't even survive to complain about it.

So as I appreciate God (Psalm 100) for His unrestrained love, i'll keep in mind to equally share it as frequently as i possibly can. Because to whom much is given...much is expected.
Enjoy the rest of the month folks. xxx
Kwiksie~

Say GRIN!

hi there lovely folks! Merrrrry Christmas in arriars!!! I wonder if any of you have added as much weight as i have...

Right, this period's been busy (like du-uh), and fun and i honestly ALMOST forgot how it feels to have your whole family around you...well, it's pretty darn amazing i'll tell you that! :D

Now, in spite of all the wonderful things that are bound to happen this season, and they DO happen actually; there are still incidents that often threaten to remove 'em grins from our faces. They could come in the news, through phone calls, or you might even witness a terrible thing or two (i'm talking from experience here, just in case you didn't guess ;) ). But, we really should not let one bad thing over shadow all the great things we have to be thankful for. At least i know I won't! So no matter what happens...keep them whites out okay? :)

Have a blessed season, xxx

~Kwiksie.


Ps: i'm tryna practice what i preach yeh. ;D

In and Out of Season

Hi wonderful people! Hope you're all basking in the joy of the season and spreading love and goodwill to any and everyone! Oh, and if you're not..get busy you! lolz. Well, Christmas eve seems to have just kinda snuck up on me though, i really am not quite ready for it...there's gazillions to do, and absolutely no time; (But that's partly because i've wasted a good amount of it lately...sad, i know.) it's almost dizzying really.

To make matters worse, i've still got that thing we call school to think about with our exams coming up and all. Y'know it's really amazing how they (school authorities) always come up with the most ingenuous ways to semi-ruin one's holiday. -_- Then there are the generally excessive activities that this season is usually accompanied with; e.g the usual hosting get togethers-visiting-Christmas shopping-then-repeat cycle kind of 'activities'. ^_^

It can all be insane fun sometimes (or in the cases of a few, dreadfully boring ;) ) but we have to take care not to get completely immersed in and swallowed up by all the 'busyness', fun and bountiful food...despite how easy it is to. Be reminded that the reason we even HAVE a Christmas day to celebrate, is because love came down to let us live in the form of Jesus Christ, and if He could love us (we who make ourselves extremely easy to hate by the way) then we must keep at the forefront of our minds that we OWE that same kind of love to each and every person we come in contact with...both in this season and out of it. :)

Have an amazing Christmas celebration people, full of laughter, fun, food ;)...and love. xxx

Kwiksie~